I have never been on a ship, let alone one that is sinking. But after the last 4 years I have a pretty good idea what it would feel like.
Joining a telecom firm in 2001 was not a smart idea to start with but then I had no real option. Ever since then not a year has passed without layoffs or restructuring as it's called around here. The most insiduous effect of the sinking ship syndrome is not the constant threat of lay offs, it is the absolute lack of change. This lack of any real turnover - of people going out and new people and ideas coming in - results in a stale, masturbatory culture where self congratulation rules, superstitions become laws and the universe outside this fiefdom is deemed inferior.
Then why did I stick around for 4 years? Fear of the unknown, good old fashioned sloth and that indomitable bastard - hope. Once you have decided to do something (or not do something as in this case) it's always easy to find a rationale - just ask Bush. And so did I, kidding myself that things would work out just fine if I just hung on tight. Now that I have decided to emerge from this cocoon and move on, it is very disconcerting to have a mirror thrust in my face. While I was spending the last 4 years congratulating myself for not getting laid off, the world has moved on. I am in that strange zone - no longer an entry level engineer not yet a senior level architect.
Hell, I just paraphrased Britney Spears - this better be rock bottom !
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ha ha !!! paraphrasing britney spears and rock bottom... the best description you have is about hope ... a/an "indomitable bastard" ... but tell you what if you do sink you die ... i am pretty sure you are not a sinking ship but a ship that is kind of lost when introspection is in ... sinking is more like the "pyaasa" thing you know ... society,relatives and all ... you could see him sinking ,that chap guru dutt ... now let me warn you dude ... sinking is death but lost direction is always retrievable ... that link between your bschool and your real you is now coming close ... probably have to write down stuff clearly about what you want to do ... since the options before you would be n in abt three years time ... should be definitely complicated with family around ... good for getting a direction though ...:-)
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